Bail blinked. Yes, their last conversation hadn't covered that.
"Forgive me if this question is rude, but... isn't that a bad thing?" He remembered their bonding trip very clearly, and Obi-Wan was quite a different person at the height of their ordeal.
"It is a terrible thing." He didn't consider the question rude, he just didn't understand how it was a question at all. "Anakin yanked me back, but that's a statement of him, not me."
"With all due respect, Bail, if I were I'd either be frantic or utterly unresponsive. I suppose there is a third option of lying through my teeth but nothing I've ever experienced makes me believe I could be that functional under the influence."
Which of course... could also be a lie, but still.
"Fair," Bail said, raising a hand in a gesture of retreat. That was good enough for him. Bail had seen Obi-Wan at his worst already, and Obi-Wan looked far from what he did on Zygoola.
"Is this why you think you don't deserv-" he stopped himself and corrected his question, "you shouldn't be in a relationship with Anakin?"
He accepted the 'retreat' without further commentary and was even reassured by it. The other thing made him go a little wry. "Not entirely, but mostly, yes."
Bail pauses for a moment, to let go of his puzzlement over Obi-Wan's hang-ups, and then asked, "Setting aside those other reasons for a moment, based on this idea you shouldn't be in a relationship with Anakin because you used the Dark Side-" was he phrasing that right? He didn't know the Force well enough to be sure, but he continued, "Why should Anakin be in a relationship with you? You said he'd lived all of Vader's life-" Also still weird, "So, shouldn't he also be excluded from having a relationship with you?"
"That's a deep philosophical question," he said, trying for light but actually a little uncomfortable. "Is what someone has done in a previous life grounds for any action or in action toward them in their current one? If you remember doing something you have never actually done, is that a thought crime or just unfortunate?"
"I don't have an answer to the intent for the question but I can think of several reasons that he shouldn't have a relationship with me, without touching the question of the Dark Side - which I still don't have an answer for."
He paused a moment to answer the second question: "He'd explain it differently, but he hates himself."
"What are those several reasons you believe prove you shouldn't have a relationship with him?" Bail was still far from thinking stabbing Obi-Wan with a lightsaber to make him cooperate was the right course of action outside of Dark Side possession. But maybe a good shaking?
"Because if you assume that what he did in another life applies and is still who he is, then he's someone I knew from the time he was nine and someone that I chopped the limbs off and left on fire."
There was no surprise there on Bail's part. He crossed one arm over his chest and used this other hand to cover his face because he needed the extra veil of cover to hold in the witty retort. When he knew he wouldn't break his serene expression, he tried for more logic.
"You are both adults, his opinion matters just as much as yours. At some point, Obi-Wan, whatever flaws you have, you have to try looking at yourself through the value your partner sees in you."
That was the most reasonable, sensible, comprehensible thing anyone had said to him in --
well, quite a while and certainly ever said to him about relationships.
If he'd been a different sort of man he would have kissed Bail.
He literally stood stock still for a moment, mouth open because he got that. Was it easy to do? No. But he understood that and was so relieved that, in spite of everything....
He laughed.
If he hadn't, he might have cried from the same emotion:
"It does not make me any more confident, but it does mean I have some understanding which is progress and will help." It also meant he was less likely to argue with Anakin about being there, or so inclined to withdraw, if only by a bit. "Thank you."
"I would like to continue our walk. The time alone with Leia will be good for him and I will still try to need to clean up the mess I've made once I return."
Which - Okay was now his most pressing priority, but he was still somewhat tired and there was the whole darkside bit. "WHere's the nearest body of water?" It wasn't far, but getting to it-
"We have in the past," Bail said. "We have water vessels we can take out. Some of my cousins enjoy fishing, though it's not one of my past times. We haven't had time in a while, unfortunately."
He made a low, considering noise as he took in information about the nature and condition and the lake - and the nature and condition of Bail. "Can you swim?"
Bail laughed. "I can. Hardly anyone grows up on Alderaan and doesn't learn how to swim in their youth. But I haven't going swimming, recreationally since my youth... But... Maybe when Leia is old enough we will. Do you? Want to go swimming?"
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"Forgive me if this question is rude, but... isn't that a bad thing?" He remembered their bonding trip very clearly, and Obi-Wan was quite a different person at the height of their ordeal.
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"And you aren't using the Dark Side now?"
After he said that, he realized how ridiculous that question would be if Obi-Wan was still on the Dark Side.
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Which of course... could also be a lie, but still.
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"Is this why you think you don't deserv-" he stopped himself and corrected his question, "you shouldn't be in a relationship with Anakin?"
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"Is that how he would explain it, or are you placing him on a pedestal?"
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He paused a moment to answer the second question: "He'd explain it differently, but he hates himself."
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Just to be... blunt about it.
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"You are both adults, his opinion matters just as much as yours. At some point, Obi-Wan, whatever flaws you have, you have to try looking at yourself through the value your partner sees in you."
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That was the most reasonable, sensible, comprehensible thing anyone had said to him in --
well, quite a while and certainly ever said to him about relationships.
If he'd been a different sort of man he would have kissed Bail.
He literally stood stock still for a moment, mouth open because he got that. Was it easy to do? No. But he understood that and was so relieved that, in spite of everything....
He laughed.
If he hadn't, he might have cried from the same emotion:
Relief.
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Bail smiled, dropping his hands and took up the more casual pose of holding them behind his back.
"Does this help solve some of your hesitations?"
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"Do you want to continue on this path or turn back?"
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Which - Okay was now his most pressing priority, but he was still somewhat tired and there was the whole darkside bit. "WHere's the nearest body of water?" It wasn't far, but getting to it-
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"The lake wraps around just ahead."
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