Still, he kept glancing at the tool, making sure it was being done properly.
"I never did understand what they wanted, really. I'd try to not let them control, I can see where that is a problem, what I'd done when anger was controlling me. But I don't see how letting them lead me is dangerous. It seems like when I trust that lead, that's when everything goes just right." He's not really looking for reassurance, he's looking for understanding. Because he hasn't gotten it, because he didn't understand himself why one always lead to disaster, but he kept doing it and why the other always lead to success and how to make it happen more often.
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Still, he kept glancing at the tool, making sure it was being done properly.
"I never did understand what they wanted, really. I'd try to not let them control, I can see where that is a problem, what I'd done when anger was controlling me. But I don't see how letting them lead me is dangerous. It seems like when I trust that lead, that's when everything goes just right." He's not really looking for reassurance, he's looking for understanding. Because he hasn't gotten it, because he didn't understand himself why one always lead to disaster, but he kept doing it and why the other always lead to success and how to make it happen more often.